[ Regardless of her assurances, a panic shoots up in Amos. He feels calm and at his freest when he's about to fight; this is the opposite of that.
But he's committed now. And if he didn't do it then it would just gnaw away at him. And then he'd probably do something stupid. And without his family here, he wants to avoid that.
He locks his eyes on Kyna's and moves his hand forward, allowing his fingertips to brush up against hers.
The jolt he feels is like anything he's felt before. His expression doesn't change much, aside from gritting his teeth and making a split second decision on if he should keep pushing through or jerk his hand away.
He jerks his hand away, his heart beating wildly. He has no idea what just happened, what he felt; whether it was a window into something he'd never been able to see in other people before or if this was something else entirely that even people Naomi and Holden had never felt. There isn't even any joy from the adrenaline rush; it was intimate and it makes his skin crawl.
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But he's committed now. And if he didn't do it then it would just gnaw away at him. And then he'd probably do something stupid. And without his family here, he wants to avoid that.
He locks his eyes on Kyna's and moves his hand forward, allowing his fingertips to brush up against hers.
The jolt he feels is like anything he's felt before. His expression doesn't change much, aside from gritting his teeth and making a split second decision on if he should keep pushing through or jerk his hand away.
He jerks his hand away, his heart beating wildly. He has no idea what just happened, what he felt; whether it was a window into something he'd never been able to see in other people before or if this was something else entirely that even people Naomi and Holden had never felt. There isn't even any joy from the adrenaline rush; it was intimate and it makes his skin crawl.
He doesn't break eye contact. ]