[ while he would gladly ride to your rescue (or help when it was needed), he thought himself a pretty terrible knight all things considered. so much loss had occurred while he'd been helping john lead, after all. ]

Takes practice and time to really get a hold of them.

[ and at least she had people here who would help. she wouldn't be young and thrown out because of what she could do. ]

And I don't think there's a shortage of people who'd be willing to help you get it under control. You weren't that bad today. You just panicked.