( seeing clarke and feeling her as a real, tangible person and not a figment of her imagination is refreshing. there arenā€™t any actual curative properties but raven lets herself think maybe everything will work out because theyā€™re together. sheā€™s not sweeping clarkeā€™s horrendous decisions under the rug but sheā€™s not about to ignore her good deeds, so. itā€™s complicated basically. their people need clarke's courage and steel, and her unfailing ability to somehow build alliances wherever she goes. she brings something else to the table. what raven feels in the moment is a mixed bag but the strongest resonating emotion is that sheā€™s happy, for however long it lasts.
sheā€™s not freaked by the glowing blue chest ( someone told her and she hadnā€™t believed them until now ), although she does sort of want to stop what theyā€™re doing, rip her shirt off and examine herself. hello, for science! but right, right, right. focus. the second passes and while sheā€™s dissecting what that was, how it happened, whatā€™s hers and whatā€™s clarkeā€™s, sheā€™s unfortunately staring like a fixated weirdo.
raven breaks it with a nod, sniffing, and not exactly pretending like her eyes arenā€™t wet but not full-on crying either. it's a lot, okay, and she already wears her heart on her sleeve without someone else being able to leech that. )
Lead the way. ( whichever direction she picks, raven joins her on her right. when she finds the nerve to speak, it's softly at first. ) You seriously want to hear about that? ( not judgy, just. her confidence is muted temporarily. it's probably a good thing they're not touching anymore. ) Everything we worked for, everything I planned, it never would have worked without you. You saved us, Clarke.
( time and place for truth bombsā€”what's that? she levels clarke with a determined look. try fighting her on that. and while she isn't changing the subject, she doesn't know what levee may break with that discussion or if clarke's just going to blink owlishly at her and cover, pretend it doesn't matter and that she's above things like receiving gratitude. she's throwing levity into the dire conversation and giving her options on how to progress is all. )
But I was pretty freaking awesome up there. I flew a rocket ship. Me. I finally got a repeat on that spacewalk. ( a beat, smile giving way to regret. ) You should have been there. You would have been proud of us. I guess all those 'united fronts' lectures paid off. Even Murphy helped keep us all alive until we got the life support up and running.
lmsfoa! "later, raven would toss and turn wondering why clarke's forehead was so crispy."
sheā€™s not freaked by the glowing blue chest ( someone told her and she hadnā€™t believed them until now ), although she does sort of want to stop what theyā€™re doing, rip her shirt off and examine herself. hello, for science! but right, right, right. focus. the second passes and while sheā€™s dissecting what that was, how it happened, whatā€™s hers and whatā€™s clarkeā€™s, sheā€™s unfortunately staring like a fixated weirdo.
raven breaks it with a nod, sniffing, and not exactly pretending like her eyes arenā€™t wet but not full-on crying either. it's a lot, okay, and she already wears her heart on her sleeve without someone else being able to leech that. )
Lead the way. ( whichever direction she picks, raven joins her on her right. when she finds the nerve to speak, it's softly at first. ) You seriously want to hear about that? ( not judgy, just. her confidence is muted temporarily. it's probably a good thing they're not touching anymore. ) Everything we worked for, everything I planned, it never would have worked without you. You saved us, Clarke.
( time and place for truth bombsā€”what's that? she levels clarke with a determined look. try fighting her on that. and while she isn't changing the subject, she doesn't know what levee may break with that discussion or if clarke's just going to blink owlishly at her and cover, pretend it doesn't matter and that she's above things like receiving gratitude. she's throwing levity into the dire conversation and giving her options on how to progress is all. )
But I was pretty freaking awesome up there. I flew a rocket ship. Me. I finally got a repeat on that spacewalk. ( a beat, smile giving way to regret. ) You should have been there. You would have been proud of us. I guess all those 'united fronts' lectures paid off. Even Murphy helped keep us all alive until we got the life support up and running.